Just a Few Thoughts

In deciding to blog this morning, I really didn't have anything profound or thought-provoking to say. So, I will just let you know about a few things that are on my heart.
I have been thinking alot lately about friendships and relationships. Now, I am a shy person by nature and have to push myself to "get out there" sometimes. Once I do, I am usually glad. I don't seem to do well in social situations where there are alot of folks gathered, unless maybe it's family or people I know really well. I think I do better in smaller groups or even one on one situations. I think God made me this way for a reason. Maybe it makes me appear to be "anti-social" at times, but that's just how I am!
God has blessed me with a few very special friends in my life. Some still remain....one or two were only for a season.
Sometimes the way that I am can result in loneliness and isolation brought on by myself! So, although I love having just a few close relationships, at times I shoot myself in the foot, because I hang on to the familiar and don't give someone else a chance.
Why am I telling you this? I don't know! Maybe I am being too self-indulgent this morning...I apologize!
I have also been thinking about death....ok, I know....now I am being morbid! But, in just the past couple of weeks, I have heard of two women who lost their husbands suddenly to heart attacks...and they were young! This scares the bejeebers out of me...especially when I watch Tommy day after day pushing so hard at work. But, I can't worry over it...or I'll drive myself crazy! Then, of course, the shootings at VT remind me that everyday my children are exposed to the madness of this world.
I have to put these worries in God's hands and let go! I have to do that daily, hourly, minutely, secondly!
I wonder how people who don't know Christ deal? Where do they put their hope and trust? Anyway... I am not going to regurgitate words anymore.
Somebody posted a comment on one of my old posts the other day and all it said was "trash". It was an anonymous post. when I looked back and read what the post was about, I couldn't help but agree. It was trash! But, I am just expressing some thoughts and feelings...nobody has to agree or disagree with me. You don't even have to read this! It may be that a private journal is a better place for me to write my thoughts.

VA Tech

As a parent of a child who is in college, I am feeling very sad this morning for the parents of those VA Tech students who were killed yesterday. When I first heard about it and saw it on TV, I couldn't help but think about Ashley. I was thinking about all the petty arguments and disagreements that we have had and how many parents may have just had one of those with their student before this happened. After all, that isn't uncommon among parents and college-age kids.
Or maybe they just haven't communicated in awhile, or just said "I love you and I am proud of you". Of course it also brings back memories of Columbine. I remember what I did that day...I went and got Ashley and Maggie out of school! I just wanted them home with me.
This morning I had to hug Maggie...just to hold her before she went off to school. Guys, we can't protect our children from the daily evils that are out there....only God can do that. Every day, if I don't pray anything else, I put my children in God's hands as they go to school and do other things. That's all we can do! And it is sufficient.
My heart goes out to the families of all those who were killed in this tragedy. I am praying for them and I call on all of you to do the same.